This year, the boys and I are taking a month to focus on each of the fruits of the Spirit: love, joy, peach, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. The idea came to me in January and I thought it fitting to begin focusing on love first beginning in February.
The short story of February is that until the end of it, love month was almost a complete disaster. I felt as though my husband and I fought the entire month, we didn’t follow through with some of the things I was planning on for that month, but for the last week, we actually were able to begin thinking about how we were displaying the fruits of love to each other and to those around us. The month ended with me feeling like we were just starting to get momentum, but we moved on in March to ‘joy’.
March was the month my grandmother became very ill and on March 14th, she succumbed to that illness and passed away. I’m not sure we took even a single day to contemplate joy except for the times I thought it ironic, but almost calming that this month was for ‘joy’. This meant to me that God would be in control of my joy. I kept thinking of the Bible verse, “The joy of the Lord is my strength”. I needed strength.
Now, we are in April and it’s supposed to be focused on ‘peace’. I could think of a hundred ways this world needs more peace, but I find myself struggling the most to grasp this fruit. My boys are rambunctious, the opposite of peaceful. They like their music loud, they love to wrestle and fight, they love guns and swords and ninjas…and I don’t know if my peace simply contrasts with their peace because they have been blessed to live in a peaceful country, a peaceful town, a peaceful home. Also, this month we are preparing to move to a new apartment in our seemingly never-ending process of owning a home. I need love. I need joy. I need peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, and self control. Most of all, I need the Spirit to continue to pour out those fruits and a willingness to turn those blessings I receive towards others.